Sunday, April 19, 2009

On a lighter note

I spent the night at Pyopyo's house last night and it was awesome ^_^
I didn't get raped as much as I thought I would be and I went to the zoo for the first time 8D
It was tons of fun.
I have an essay due tuesday and I haven't started on it.
I'm thinking about new cosplays and I
Recently found out about Aki-con in washington 8D
I wanna go!
Plus I'm stressing far to much.
I don't have time to be a kid. It's far to trivial.
No time, I always have to think about the future.
Did you know I didn't even have my first kiss yet?
I don't even think I've been on a date yet..
We'll there was that one time I hung out with Tristan at the mall...but was that a date?
I'm not sure. Well it was awkward anyway.
I'm going now. It's midnight bye!

I have to be the best...

I just realised why I've been so stressed out lately.
My own mother just gave me the "Your to frustrated" speech.
Every second of my life.
Everything I do.
I have to be the best at.
I have to try harder then better.
My memory isn't as good as it is anymore and I can't remember anything I did last week.
But my body remembers everything I need like mathematics and stuff.
Sometimes I don't even remember learning how to do an equation but I do it perfectly anyway.
I'm pushing myself to the limit and I know it.
I'll probably die from pushing myself so hard.
I'm always thinking about the future.
I'm only a sophmore and I'm thinking that I need to start thinking about college now.
I need to know where I'm going and how I'm going to get there.
I'm looking at my forecasting sheet and it has incredibly hard classes.
Which I signed up for. I don't know if I can handle it because I have no time to rest anymore with this schedule.
I would be able to graduate my junior year with enough credits but I have a full schedule from now till my senior year.
Think it's to much?
I don't think so.
I don't have time to be a kid. I don't have time to screw off and hang with my friends.
Frankly, I'd rather stay inside and work on extra credit then outside playing with my friends.
I'd rather create a production then go on a date.
I've NEVER...I think...Been on a date in my life.
I can't imagine kissing a boy in my life.
I can't imagine going on a date. I think it would be incredibly awkward.
I love my friends and everything but I don't like things that waste my time.
I hate fooling around and not being productive.
Yet I myself am very lazy....
But still I'm stressing about the future.
I want to be the best. I need to be the best. I have to be the best.
All these hard classes with no time to rest sounds like the best way
that I can ensure that I will do well.
I don't need breaks and with only 4 hours of sleep a day I seem fine.
I'll do alright right?

I don't know anymore...
I was just ranting...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Birthdays, Modeling, Music OH MY


So I was at the mall yesterday handing out with my friends wearing my Konishi cosplay and this woman comes up to our group and asks to talk with me.
I thought it was weird and she just wanted to ask if i could be a model for her.
So we went to another table and we talk about what I would be modeling.
She told me that she deigns a line of cute leggings and she liked the stockings i was wearing -3-
We exchanged contact info and she told me the models get to keep what they wear and the winner who get's their picture taken the most wins an apple video touch.
I thought that was cool XD
The photoshoots in July and my mom's gonna go with me.
I'm shocked XD I've never been asked to be a model before!

Oh yeah, There was a TWEWY event at the mall yesterday and I was dressed up as Konishi XD
Here's some picture. Konan-chan has more and I'll post them when she uploads them.
Edited by Dana XD
Today I also uploaded 3 new videos and wrote the lyrics to all of it!
It's the Akuno series only on Rin and Len's side though!
Please check out my youtube for them!

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Oh crap!

I haven't posted in a while.
So today we were just working on choreography for the musical
I was texing syd and miky told me to stop texting XD
I'm talking to Syd now~
Riku's a douche gonna kill him for touching what's mine.

Um...Not much.
Well I'm bored!